I am having a really hard time right now.
This blog is a way for me to vent.
and if I can't be honest with myself,
than who can I be honest with?
These last few days have honestly been horrible.
I am not going to lie.
They have been darn right awful!
You think that going on a trip away for a week
will be so amazing and you will come back so relaxed and ready for anything.
We really did have an amazing trip
but I was not prepared for what I came back to.
The first 2 days back were great!
I was so happy to see my girls,
they were so happy to see me.
Life was grand!
We were playing, reading stories, laughing!
Then everything changed.
The girls started getting very bold with me,
fighting ALL THE TIME!
Ellie has been in an awful mood, talking back,
dinner has become a scream fest.
I don`t know what has happened!
Where everything went wrong.
We've had more tears in the last 3 days than we have in the last month!
I have been on the verge of insanity,
trying to hold it together but barely passing.
I know parenting is tough,
maybe I am a wimp.
after a scream fest at dinner,
I decided to let the girls have a bath.
It started out ok, the girls were laughing and playing together.
Then the screaming started,
the hitting started,
the splashing started,
It was RIDICULOUS!!
I have never seen a bath turn so awful in the blink of an eye.
I took them out immediately,
got their pj`s on,
read them a story,
gave them their bottles
and put them to bed.
Maybe I will regret it tomorrow morning when they wake up at 5am
because I put them to bed so early,
but right now,
I just can`t handle it.
I am going to lose it!
I don`t know if this is what I get for leaving them for a week,
or if it is just a phase they are starting
but something has got to change.
I am ready for Luke to be home tomorrow so I can have a break,
Figure out how we are going to survive this stage.
I love my girls to death!
But having 2 toddler girls in the same house while you are pregnant,
not sure if it was the greatest idea! lol
I know God gives you nothing you can't handle,
but right now,
I am really feeling like I am at the end of my rope.
Who knew parenting was so hard.